the past 2 weeks have been pretty uneventful. i had lots planned but due to the rain and 'the plague' hitting my house (post to come later), i have found myself at home a lot.
it is days like these that i can't get on facebook without becoming mildly melancholy. i have never really been one to compare myself to others and get down about myself. in fact, when i see happy moms doing great things, with cute kids, and a perfect home it inspires me.
my natural attitude is to 'do your best and hang the rest' and honestly i can say that when i come up short on something i react with: well.. maybe i will get it the next time around.
while, i think this is a good way of thinking and being, i found that with that attitude i was becoming too mediocre and sometimes less than mediocre and was okay with it. so, now i try to reevaluate myself and really push myself to be better. to learn. and grow. to make my 'best' better. especially when it comes to my home (read my husband, son, and the spirit of our home).
my prophet describes it like this:
"i have been quoted as saying, 'do the best you can.' but i want to emphasize that it be the very best. we are too prone to be satisfied with mediocre performance. we are capable of doing so much better."
anyways, i got sidetracked. so if i don't really care about how i measure up to others, why does fb get me down?
well, basically i miss the sunshine. the ocean. my ocean. i see photos of friends with their babes at the beach and i long to be there with them.
summer time in california was the best - spent every day and night at t-street, aliso viejo, thousand steps, or laguna. And we can't forget secret beach and dana point's tide pools.. i would see moms there with their babes and imagine myself doing the same one day.
our ward had a weekly beach day where all the moms brought their kids and played at the beach. sack lunches. sandy towels. gritty hair. salty skin. tan lines. happiness.
there is something peaceful and rejuvenating about standing along the shore and feeling the water come and go around your ankles.
well, in hopes of filling my ocean/sunshine need, i bought a pass to the local water park, and check online multiple times a week for its opening. lazy rivers and wave pools will have to do for now.
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